trusting Mr Right

It's pouring rain outside. I want to be snuggled under the covers with Mr Right while the rain splatters on the concrete under the window. but, instead, I'm on the couch writing this instead of getting ready for work.

Mr Right and I had a wonderful trip to the beach, and are getting ready to leave again for my son's Air Force basic training graduation on Wednesday.

And, we continue to get closer, and the bond becomes stronger between us every day. we've talked of marriage, of planning a wedding, and combining our households. but, it's not official. no proposal, but I'm told it's coming. I'm so excited that I could run screaming down the street, "He loves me! He loves me!! He loves me!!!" and I don't run. Ever. *laughs*

To top it all off? To make things even better? We had anal sex on Saturday night. Our first time together. I love anal sex. It's an amazing, intimate experience that I've shared with two people before Mr Right. He had anal sex before, but it wasn't memorable, because his partners weren't really into it. So, together, for us, it was incredibly intimate, and built an even stronger level of trust between us.

Anal sex, for me, requires lots of lube, lots of deep breathing, and lots of focus on relaxation. I have always controlled the initial penetration because I didn't trust my partner not to hurt me. I've always sat on my partner's lap, facing him, knees bent, my thighs outside his, and simply lowered myself onto his cock. I couldn't manage that this time, so I let Mr Right penetrate me, first from behind, and then I was on my back, legs raised, as he pushed inside me. He was so very gentle, and tender, and was thrilled that I trusted him so completely.

When it was apparent he wasn't going to cum that way, and my body was aching from fatigue, we stopped, and just rested in each other's arms. The only time I ever felt closer to a human being was when my children were born, and again, as they were so tiny, and held onto me for love and comfort. It was one of those moments that I will carry with me for a lifetime - the realization that I belong, that I matter, and that someone has penetrated my internal walls, and he will not abuse the trust I have placed in him.

With Mr Right, there are no doubts, no nagging fears, no wishes that this or that were different. I don't remember feeling like this about anyone before. Yes, I've been head over heels in love, or so I thought. But even then, there were things about my love interest that I dreaded, or disliked, or thought I wanted to, or could, change.

This time, those fears, or nagging worries, or dislikes don't exist. And, trust me, I've looked for them, and poured through my thoughts, and impressions, and memories to find any red flags I've overlooked or ignored. There are none.

Life is good. I'm happy. I'm in love. I'm lovable. I'm loved. Life is good.

7 Comments so far »

  1. by Florida Dom , on October 6, 2009 at 11:14 AM

    Oh your joy just jumped off the computer screen. Life doesn't get much better than to love and be loved. I'm sure the love between you two will continue to grow and I hope you'll continue to share it with us. It's also great he gives you the anal sex you love, too.

    And I hope he has an exciting proposal planned that will knock your socks off and bring tears to your eyes. Tell him your blogger friends are expecting him to rise to the occasion (pun intended) and come up with something grand that you both will never forget it. Good luck.

    FD

  2. by Aeon's Angel , on October 6, 2009 at 3:37 PM

    I am so happy for you. You had a wonderrful experience with the man you love! I understand why you would want to run in the streets.

    I hope all good things come to you.

  3. by mouse , on October 7, 2009 at 9:55 AM

    Yay to both you guys! I think it's wonderful! It's all about give/take/balance...

    hugs all around,
    mouse

  4. by selkie , on October 7, 2009 at 5:22 PM

    such a lovely blog to read! I'm glad for you, truly.

  5. by cultivateddiscipline , on October 7, 2009 at 11:08 PM

    Wonderful, I am so happy you found such pleasure with a wonderful man. All the best to you both.

  6. by Greenwoman , on October 13, 2009 at 4:56 PM

    "And I don't run." How beautiful that is...

    I'm happy for you.

  7. by FunKayLynn , on October 13, 2009 at 8:45 PM

    CP,

    You always, I repeat, always make me smile. I am so happy for you both!

    KayLynn

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