Life is very, very good here in Cutesypah's corner of the world. I forgot how much fun it was to be "high" on the chemicals your body creates when you're head over heels in love, and having more sex than you've had since college. Plus, add in all the intoxicating feelings that occur as you define a new D/s relationship, and you've got a two grown adults acting like giggly, love-struck teenagers all over again.
Another spanking session with Mr Right last night left me with some new discoloration on my left side. Previously, it was more pronounced on my right side. Plus, his mouth on my cunt, licking and sucking at my clit until I soaked the bed with my cum, made the spanking all the more pleasurable. Goddess, I'd forgotten what it's like to have a man waiting, willing, and available to have me every time his heart and cock desires. I've once again become the cumslut and fucktoy I have always yearned to be.
Yet, there is so much more to our relationship than just sex, but it does fit the bill nicely. Mr Right commented that I am so much more relaxed, and balanced, since we've begun our journey together. And, yes, my codependency has retreated for now, as there is no drama, and there are no issues nor concerns that I see, or even am trying to ignore, right now. Seriously, I know when I'm ignoring the red flags, and when I'm minimizing, or justifying, or rationalizing someone's behavior. And, I'm just not finding ANYTHING with Mr Right to be concerned about.
This is so wicked good, it's scary!
by mouse , on August 15, 2009 at 10:50 AM
cutesypah,
I am so happy for you. (and I'll update my blog to reflect your new home).
When I started my relationship with Omega I was like that, but it's not as intense now as we're more settled in our positions. It's a weird thing how this power exchange works.
With Alpha I would lie to myself that it wasn't depleting. With Omega, I keep giving and giving and I get more in return (at least it feels that way to me).
mouse.
by Dom Tom , on August 15, 2009 at 11:41 AM
I tasted the giddiness of new love myself recently, and more recently have been sipping at the D/s well, so I know exactly what you mean by the great feeling of being a college aged kid again, but it is so much better now that we have the maturity and perspective. I am 49 and my wife is 47, but we fuck like rabbits and it's amazing. How can sex feel like the first time every time? And now, exploring the boundaries of D/s is adding yet another layer of pleasure and excitement. I hope our parallel journeys continue along that beautiful path!
by Anonymous , on August 15, 2009 at 8:51 PM
i'm so glad you're happy! love the new home! i of course added it to my page ;)
by nbs , on August 16, 2009 at 3:25 PM
How wonderful to know you are so happy~~
Enjoy every second!!