Today's Special: Sub Drop Soup

Sub drop has always been a curious thing to me. Mr. Right, having no previous submissives to play with, doesn't understand it all that much. Hell, I've been actively participating in D/s since 1998 and I STILL don't understand it completely.

Having said that, Mr Right did a magnificent job of spanking me until I cried, and I have the wonderful light bruises to show for it, but a very tender bottom. We had a very, very long talk about "skeletons" in our closets, and the walls we've each built up over the years. I know we touched on some very sensitive subjects, but we each respected the other's position, and agree we are much closer for it.

And, somewhere along the way, I picked up a stomach bug that my mother and my daughter are presently sharing - yuck. So, is it sub drop, or merely the fact that I'm tired, and don't feel good? *shrugs* who knows? all I know is that my stomach swears we're on deck on a ship in the middle of the rolling ocean, and I'm trying to do all I can to keep the nausea at bay.

Or maybe it's because my son arrived at the Air Force base to begin basic training, and called me, but I missed the call. I cried, and Mr. Right held me close, gently rubbing my head, back and shoulders all the while. He really is wonderful.

Meanwhile, I'm trying not to overwhelm Mr. Right with mushy emails telling him how I'm head over heels for him, and in short, doing all I can to keep from begging him not to go away. The good part? He is VERY familiar with codependency, and we are both focused on our recovery, and keeping our hands off each other's issues.

And, I'm waaaay behind reading everyone's blogs. bleh.

4 Comments so far »

  1. by Gillette , on August 12, 2009 at 7:05 PM

    Ny daughter just got back from her second layer of training in the Air Force. She LOVED basic training (graduated last Spring). She's home for a month and then ships off to Japan. Hope your son likes it as much as she does.

  2. by mouse , on August 12, 2009 at 7:45 PM

    Subdrop for me depends on how hard we play. We just recently started some moderate play. It was great! Subdrop can make me very moody and emotional. Omega has to be extra patient with me. For us it's just part of the exchange when I give that much of myself he has to put some extra back.

    I'm thrilled you're so happy! I think your codependency issues will get easier.


  3. by Kitty , on August 12, 2009 at 9:14 PM

    subdrop for me, is an extremely moody experience. i typically feel insecure and unsure of myself to an intense degree.

    i'm sure its different for everyone.

  4. by nancy , on August 13, 2009 at 4:49 PM

    Sorry you've got the bug... or had it!
    Subdrop is a bear for me.. I always have to remind the Dom that he must remind me it is temporary.. somehow just hearing that helps me get past it without feeling too crazy.
    All the best~~

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